HELLO WORLD.

I NEED A BREAK.

GOSH.

I showed my little 9-year-old sister this site a month ago.

Today, I walked past her and did a double take when I saw her on on the , pressing "yes" to every one that showed up.

I asked her why, and she said "Every moment here is beautiful. They all deserve to be shared".

Baby girl, you GMH.

http://www.givesmehope.com/page/2

Blood suckers

Oh my god. ):

Yesterday was SO TIRING! D:
Travel travel and travel. My injured leg is gonna break any sooner. >\

Big news.

I LOST MY FILE. I LOST MY FILE. THE FILE OF MY PAST 2 YEARS. EVERYTHING IS INSIDE! ALL THE MEMORIES! OH MY GOD. WHAT THE SHIT HONGPING. YOU STUPID NOOB SHIT! D<

I found the whole of lot. I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FIND IT! TT Gosh, i got so depressed that i donated $3 plus to a guy who came up to me. I just took a handful of coins and give him, then i realise i saw 2 $1 coin in it. But i thought it'll be stupid if i asked for my money back, so i just left. This is okay, because i am doing a good deed. TO ADD ON, WHAT HAPPENED AT NIGHT WAS HORRIBLE. >\
I went to board the bus, take note people, BUS 963R.
Tell you, it's so expensive that you will cry okay. LIKE CRY.
Then my card went out of money. So i had to put coins.
Bus driver: This bus do not accept student fare.
Me: !?
Me: Then how much do i have to pay for 2 stops?
Bus driver: 1 stop $1.60
Me: HUH?!
(Mum and brother already sitting down)
Me: ... (takes out all the coins, put into the machine)
Bus driver: how much did you put?
Me: About $2.70? (Cursing in my mind)
Bus driver: HUH? Why you put so much?
Me: HUH?! (I thought he said 1.60 per stop?!)
Me: Aiya, never mind la. I already put.
Bus driver: Orh, okay.

WTH. You know where did i board the bus? BESIDE BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA. You know where did i alight? MY HOUSE, WHICH IS VERY NEAR BUKIT PANJANG PLAZA.
My mum wanted to take bus because she was very tired and she thought that when you change bus, it's only $0.20 for adults, but when she alight that blood sucking bus, she realised she paid $1. And she started to rant all the way home. Gosh. I felt like shit. But told her it's okay la, lesson learnt.

Therefore, DO NOT BOARD 963 WITH THE R. It costs a BOMB.

This is out of control

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. It could be wrong could be wrong..

I didn't fail anything. :D as a whole. :D
Credits to Gabriel! :D
Thanks for the nights that you accompanied me to study through messaging!!

Hahahhahaha, i was thinking, if i should just give up. ._. When i failed my Chemistry paper !, but at the very least, i didn't fail my overall! :D!
WOOOOOO.

I'm gonna start mugging like some crazy bitch yeah!
I'm going to start doing a June holidays schedule out! WOO. I'm feel motivated. But i'm worried for the upcoming chinese O level. ): If i can't get A1, then it'll be stupid. i don't want to go for the same exam again and get the same results. D: It'll be wasting my time and money. It's not even MY money, it's my parents. D: I'm so stressed out. Gosh.

Everything's gonna be fine yeah? Just fine. ):

Hi Tan Hongping.
YOU'RE FINALLY 16!
but still, your thinkings not maturing any faster /:<
HAHA, okay anyway.
Thanks for always being here for me when I need you.
Remember I'll be here whenever you need me too.
Enjoy today.
Love you!


WithLove,
Sherrill

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BANANA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Happy birthday B~! :D

M U S E

Something to cheer me up.

MUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Oh my godddd, my chinese is lousier than Gabriel!
D:
And chinese used to be one of my best subjects, the one that i can be proud of. Ironic isn't it.
I'm happy for him, but i'm disappointed with myself, once again. I keep telling myself that i wouldn't disappoint myself anymore, but i just keep repeating my mistakes. I wanna study. I really do. And i really am studying. This is the first time in my 16 years of life, i've studied so much, but i guess it just isn't enough. I can do this. I have to do this. I don't have any other choices do I? I want to get into a good course in Poly and do my parents. But it seems like, i don't have the ability to. I really am trying. I try to study every night now, i try to revise what the teacher went through. Yes, i do slack, but not much anymore.
Just do yourself proud once hongping. Please.

I can do it. I can.
Don't give up on yourself, its not the end. There are people worse than you in the world, but i don't see them giving up. Motivate yourself, don't wait for other people to push you. Come on. You can do it.

就想賴著妳 Down With Love Episode 13 Part 8/8

19 MAY

My birthday is coming!
:D!!

BUT IT'S ON MOCK EXAM.
TSKKK.
):

I want a laptoppppppppppppppp.):

I failed my Chemistry Paper 1.
...

I'm going to start from the beginning already. Not studying like that.

To add on to this, I've lost a study partner.

Who do I thank? LOLL. IDK. I want to scream.
People who are more than good friends are hard to get.

That event just gave me more reasons to not hang out.

Worst come to worst. I'll just pack my things, not on my own will.

Oh my god, i should really study for chinese. D:

STUPID HONGPING.
TOMORROW CHINESE MID-YEAR EXAM LEHHH!

heysoulsister

:D

I miss ADAM soooooooooooooooo much!!

Now my only element of laughter is gone.
Bye drama.

Oh my godddd, i've decided to read up some happy stories. :D

To make myself feel happy! :D
hahahahhaha.

I ended up looking at quotes. Wooooo! :D

*laughs*

Life's good people
Life's AWESOME!

My post are too vague.
Will start posting in details tomorrow. :D
Even if no one's looking.
:D

I'm stepping down from drama.
...

Bye love. I will come back yeah?
Don't forget me.

OH MY GOD.

Ching's oral examiner is same as me!
MDM PREMA!

I'm damn scared.
*freaked out*

Loveeee!

[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

tent xxxx's friend.!!!!!

22:19:54[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

hello.

22:20:59I say:

HELLLOOOOOO

22:21:00I say:

OH MY GOD

22:21:04I say:

I VERY LONG

22:21:08I say:

NEVER ONLINE ALREAEDY!!!!

22:21:10I say:

ALREADY*

22:22:24I say:

how are you ah?

22:22:24I say:

: D!

22:23:48[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

nice

22:23:56[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

just like missing something

22:25:10I say:

mmm?

22:25:13I say:

missing what things?

22:25:13I say:

LOL

22:25:30[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

erm

22:25:32[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

friend

22:25:38[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

my friend is YOU.!!

22:25:40[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

muahaha

22:25:45[c=9][a=0][b]*help好爱她，好想她[/b][/a=0][/c=7] says:

miss you so much

22:25:53I say:

OH MANNNNN!!!

22:25:56I say:

gosshhhhhh!

22:26:02I say:

* HUGGGGG **!!!!

22:26:08I say:

yeah!
missed talking to you!

AHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHA!

Give me 5 HAs!

HA

HA

HA

HA

HA

!

Good luck for SS EXAM.

Freak it people.

FREAK IT.

GOOD LUCK TO DIONNNNNNNNNN ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ !
(she rocks. :D!)

Oh man. I miss the computer. D:

I'm slow at everything and anything.
And i'm not clever, but i'm not hardworking too.
Hahahahahha, my studies will die.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20100327/tap-314-thousands-join-singapore-observe-231650b.html

Cool!

HO HO HO!

HELLO WORLD!

Miss me?
:D

I missed you. :D

I LOVE YATYANNNNNNNNN!!!
:DDDDD!


(i wanted to put an unglam picture at first, but she will kill me. D:)

Misses

I went to LIMIN'S HOUSE YESTERDAY! :D!

Fun fun fun! I've learn how to play mahjong! Not everything, but at least a bit. :D
heeeeee!

BIG BIG THANKS TO EECHING, LIMIN AND JIADE FOR TEACHING ME!
:D

I love you guys like TONS.
:D

I went to Nisha's blog today. D: Mmmmm, i haven't really talk to her in AGES. Looking forward to the time when we do yeah! I look retarded in that photo lady. ): But i forgive you, since you miss me. LOL. That's what you used to say. A lot. LOL.

Tomorrow's piano exam.
*freaked out*
You have no idea how scared i am.

Strangers?

I know i'm doing the wrong thing and i'm being cold.

But it's not like she cared.

Words will always be words.
There's a reason why they say "Actions are bigger than words".

Maybe i'm just being a pathetic loser here.

LOL.
I'm so sleepy. ):

Gahhhhh, the one week is gone.
I'M SO TIREDDDDDDD.

School on monday.
D:

Hello again?
D:

Tarzan

Once upon a time in the jungle.
All the animals and Tarzan was taking a bath in a waterfall.
Then Tarzan noticed that all the animals were laughing at him.
He asked the elephant ” why are ya’ll laughing at me ”
The elephant answered ” the reason why we laughing is that we got tails at the back and u got a tail in the front”

The old man and the dog

An old man came out to smoke his pipe and there was a dog in his back yard. A guy walking by stopped and asked the old man, “Does your dog bite?” The old man replied, “Nope.” So the guy goes over to pet the dog and when he does the dog bites him in the hand and the guy is screaming and moving around and he asks the old man, “I thought you said your dog doesnt bite!?” The old man replied, “Aint my dog.”

Joke 2:

One day a rabbit wants some carrots, so he goes to a store and asks if they have carrots. The store owner says no, so the rabbit leaves. He comes back the day after and asks if they have carrots. The store owner says “no, and if you come back again i’ll break your teeth.” the rabbit doesn’t believe him so he goes back the next day and asks if they have carrots, and the store owner breaks his teeth, and the rabbit leaves. The next day, the rabbit comes back and asks “do you have any carrot juice?”

Q: What do you call a dog with no legs?

A: It doesn’t matter, he won’t come anyway.

LOLLL.

http://spaces.msn.com/ngchinhooi/ says (11:06 PM):
yea
that right
but don't be selfish also
http://spaces.msn.com/ngchinhooi/ says (11:07 PM):
hah
haha
http://spaces.msn.com/ngchinhooi/ says (11:17 PM):
hey
http://spaces.msn.com/ngchinhooi/ says (11:18 PM):
don't fuck your life
must enjoy your life
i know life is fuck n suck
but you have to try and enjoy it
http://spaces.msn.com/ngchinhooi/ says (11:37 PM):
going to sleep
good night
call me when you need me
24 hours service
=D


\m/ to chin hooi!
:DDDD!

Oh my goddd.

I'm so FULL!
F U L L!
*burb*
I want to sleep.

LOL.
I REALISE I'M LIKE A PIGGY! DDD:!!!

Now then i realise i missed my father so much.

I ran today.
30 minutes straight without stopping.

IT WAS AWESOME.
HAHA.
I can feel everything spinning. Wooo!

Now i'm thinking about all the other things that i haven't been thinking about recently.
My life is all about studies.
It's like WHAT THE FUCK. OH MY GOD. I want to scream so badly!
FUCK LIFE. FUCK HOMEWORKS. FUCK SCHOOL.

I'm losing hope in everything single fucking thing. LOL.
Am i crazy or what.

I miss OB. I can't stand it. I need OB. So badly. I guess limin agrees with me.
It's scary here. I can't keep up. I can't do well. I'm just not the academic person. But i'm not good in my right brain too. LOL. Then what am i? What am i? What do i want to do?
I don't know. I don't know. I'm good at NOTHING. I have no talents. I specialised in nothing.
What am i suppose to do when i grow up?
I don't wanna be like everybody else. I want to do something meaningful.
I don't want to do a job for the sake of doing the job.
I want to do the job because i want to do it.
But what can i do? I'm not good in anything.
I just don't see anything meaningful in my future.

They always tell me, don't worry, you can do it.
But the question is, do what? I don't even know what i want to do, what do they expect from me?
It sucks to be aimless.
It sucks. I just don't have the motivation to do anything. I'm studying for the sake of other people, not for myself. Why? Because they told me to.

I hate english.

Sometimes, i wish i was special.

So sports day was cancelled.
LOL.

Cool! Cancelled in my last year.
HAHAH.
MEMORABLE!
:D

Gahhhh, i should have went with them.

Tomorrow's sports day!
._.

High people?
:D?

My tummy hurts ):

I hate menstruation. D:
It's screwing up my life man.

I feel like something is going to drop down, but i don't know what.
Tsk.
The feeling suck.
I can't even stand properly.

I don't feel like going out at all and this is what happens.
lol.

Maybe I should stay at home more often.

And i just left my phone to charge for 2 hours, and nothing is charged. LOL.
Wthe hell man.
Not even a sign of life. Tsk.

Disasters

The World Is Ending.

What are you going to do next?

MUG! C:

I found god, on the corner of first and amistad(?).

Where the west, was all but won.

All alone, smoking his last cigarettes.

I said "where've you been"

He said "ask anything"

Do you know what we're fighting for? Or the pain that we're dying for(?)

(...)

I can feel myself suffocating.

One, 21 guns.

Give up the fight, put down the guns

One 21 guns.

Put up your arms into the the sky.

You and I.

(I think it's all wrong)

blah blah blah.

I miss Adam a lot. D:
Where's my big stage manager? D:

OH MY GODDDD!

I've been so busy. D: WITH OVERDUE HOMEWORKS. D:

*$#^@&((#)@#&(

I seriously need to stop procrastinating.

AND I SLEPT IN MISS CHEN'S CLASS A G A I N!
D:

I was promising myself not to!
Tskkkk! D:

I think Miss chen hates me now. Gah, i'm only concerned about my progress. LOL.
I'm such a bitch right.

There's drama tomorrow. They say i'm too lenient. I agree. No more jokes. No more. I'm really fed up with myself. Why did i make drama's discipline dropped? It's like, drama has NO DISCIPLNE NOW. D: I'm really depressed. I'm going to be firm. D: I don't know how, but i will be. I can't let this go on. Can i? If one day, drama really die, it's my fault. I started this. I'm making drama deteriorate.
I'm a failure as a chairman.

But i want to make the club rainbow thing work. Why am i so incompetent? I seriously should never never become a leader.

This is you.

And I love you. :D

Ordo Exitium says (8:37 PM):
i thought you are capable
and so you must think that you are
HONGPING says (8:37 PM):
LOL
Ordo Exitium says (8:37 PM):
make the hardest of things easy
HONGPING says (8:37 PM):
i'm not
D:
Ordo Exitium says (8:37 PM):
think you are great
no
you should change your thinking
think that you are the best; but don't get over confident haha
think you can do it
and you'll achieve it
think you are good in something and you'll be good in it
HONGPING said (9:05 PM):
mmm
i will try?
: D
Ordo Exitium says (9:06 PM):
sure
You can do
it
You have your friends support
you have your parents support
and most importantly, you have my support
you can get out of your sadness; ignore the hurt and pain inflicted on you
Ordo Exitium says (9:07 PM):
focus on your goal
:D

Ordo Exitium says (1:58 PM):
How do they hurt you milady?
HONGPING says (1:58 PM):
i don't know
LOL
Ordo Exitium says (1:58 PM):
And close friends do not hurt you over and over again
HONGPING says (1:58 PM):
they do
they always do
Ordo Exitium says (1:58 PM):
that ain't no close friends
HONGPING says (1:58 PM):
even if they don't want to.
Ordo Exitium says (1:58 PM):
they are thoughtless friends
HONGPING says (1:58 PM):
they are selfish
LOL
Ordo Exitium says (1:58 PM):
how do they hurt you? argh
selfish?
that ain't not friend no more
HONGPING says (1:58 PM):
i hate it when people don't think for others
they only think for themselves
HONGPING says (1:59 PM):
some action they've done
hahaha
it hurts
like fuck.
and they don't know
they don't fucking know
that's the worse part.

Yongsheng is a good friend.

:D

Chingay! :D

Was fun, but not really as fun as last year. LOL. But i was jumping throughout, so it's okay la. :D

I feel like a pathetic loser at times.

Yeah, just because i don't have an awesome memory to post about every single fucking thing that happen to me doesn't mean that i'm a blockhead asshole. You don't judge me here or there okay, you fucking come and know me well enough before you fucking judge me.

I am pissed. You and your face, i want to scribble on it so badly.

What's a best friend? Fuck you okay, i'm tired of waiting. I'm just going to make the first move. If nothing happens. Yeah, we should fuck off from each other.

I am so fucking pissed.

Popularity is not everything asshole. You cherish people who care for you, not eveyone. Cause you're a fucking human, you can't share your attention to everybody.
Quantity doesn't mean quality.
Glue this into your brains.
Or i'll staple it on for you.

Chingay rehearsal was draggy! D: Wasted 5 hours waiting and doing nothing. D: Tomorrow is the official performance. I'm not excited.

I hate school. I seriously hate school.

Cny?

Hi, i'm awake.

I know it's still early, but yeah, in order to prevent myself from going back to bed. I've decided to use my computer.
LOL.
I have my file right in front of me with the physic workbook, which i'm suppose to do, and the physic notes which i just took out for reference. But, here i am, moving my fingers. LOL.

This year's chinese new year is weird. I didn't get to see a lot of people. Like they've disappeared. It's sad, not to have a family reunion. It doesn't feel like chinese new year at all. And the breaks are short. Pathetically short. I'm going to school later. Like: What? You mean chinese new year holidays are over? O O?!

And i have quite a number of homework undone. GAH. >/

Going to school later.
Go hongping! (D:)

I'm back from malaysia!

This year is weird. ._.
Like, too fast. But it was still good!
:D
hahahhahhaah!

There's like 7 puppies there! New born okay! Oh my goddd, they're adorable! :D hahahhhaha, i'm going to post their pictures!
HAHAHAHA.
When i get their pictures from my cousin!

Anyway, i cut my hair! It's really really short. I can't tie it now. LOL. I look weird, but who cares la! :D I'm happy! :D

Happy happy! :D

:D

Start of a tiger year!
HAHAHAHA.
*roars*

I'm going to solve all the stupid weird problems i have!
:D

I love my friends. :D

Big big hug to
-Andrea, Limin, Eeching, Yatyan, Felicia, Vanessa, Jinxiang, Jiade, Samuel, Nisha and Sherrill!
-Jing yee, Xue yi, Ai hui, Zhi huay and Iris jie!
HAHAHA. You people are the love of my life man! :D
(I have a feeling i missed out someone, but idk who! D:)

& I love drama!
:D

(Andrea: Siqi?)

(hongping: No, it's gabriel! :D)

It's CHINESE NEW YEAR!

: D

and

VALENTINE'S DAY!

hahahahhahhahahha!
:D

I'm dead tired. LOL. Been working non stop since 8 in the morning. D:

Okay, i'm going to try to not swear during CNY.
hahahahahaha!
:D
It's a taboo!

*yawns*

雨过天晴的彩虹是最美的，我的彩虹，又变好了吗?

真的很爱你

2 hours plus of sleep.

How am i going to survive tomorrow?!

DDDDD:!

Stop procrastinating?

Emotions?

This is a post without any link.
I'm just typing what comes into my mind.

I've always wanted to post. Post what? I don't know. I don't feel anything now, it's like i'm a robot. Cool isn't it? I don't even feel the anger. Lol.

I was fascinated today. Mason was really really good in directing my group. :D Gah, i fail as a student director. ... He was so charming! :D I just don't understand why is he so hot and yet he doesn't have a girlfriend. People should be lining up for him, both boys and girls. :D

I guess the rehearsal today was better. Even though it wasn't really good for my group, but it was better than the last time? hahaha, kind of cool and weird i guess. It's like they are having too much fun and i suck at controlling people. Wonder why i'm the chairman. Lol. I guess a lot of people's unhappy that i'm the chairman, but yeah, i'm going to step down soon, so no point in thinking about it.

It used to hurt a lot. Like a lot when i see her. I get so scared. I freak out at the thought of seeing her, i don't know how to face her, or even talk to her. But today, i guess, it shows all. We are not even normal friends already. Lol. I think i'm numb. I hate it when best friends becomes strangers(not my wishful thinking?). But i think i'm taking it quite well. I haven't broke down yet. :D

Physic test today was horrible. Lol. I shouldn't have slept during normal lesson. Should have listened attentively. Should have woke up early and studied. Stupidily, i slept till 6 plus 7. And i was swearing so much early in the morning. What a good way to start my day. When i was almost reaching school, i realise i didn't bring my pe shirt. Oh man, hahaha, sorry Mr Lee. I've been disappointing him a lot. Yeah, his lessons are not really interesting, still, he's my teacher for 4 years. At least some respect from my part?

I should be doing my homework now, but i'm wasting my time into typing this redundant post. I hope i don't have any english error in this post. But there's a high chance there is. Lol.

Drama status: Divorced. I guess she signed the paper too.

Geeeee, i'm sleepy. D:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J28dgghavqs

I guess i am gay, but i think they are hot.
LOL.

I guess i'm into gay guys too.
:D
Should talk to sabrina more.
:D

LOL.
Why are most of my friends crazy over Mason?
._.
Yeah, he is hot. Like HOT.
:D

I just wanna sleep under pressure.

Projection, articulation, emotions, where have they gone to? Show them we don't have to hold the mike. Show them. Please.

Thanks Lesbo for buying food for me everyday and trying to cheer me up.
You're awesome.

Limin, you kuku. Stop being scared. I'm here. :D

I miss shopping with yatyan, jinxiang and vanessa.
Lol.

It's a beautiful lie. It's a perfect deny.

All the right friends in all the wrong places.

Thursdays = Fuck.

O O?!

I can't believe i wanted to cry over an egg!
Oh my god, it's so retarded. I got so pissed off that i wanted to cry.
LOL.

My cravings for eggs have become too serious.
D:
I have to get it under control.
D:

Maybe i should just eat a scrambled egg soon. ._.

When i grow up, i'm going to find a husband who knows how to cook excellent scrambled eggs and meals. LOL. Also, he can do household chores. If not my house is just going to bve a pig sty. LOL.

I need to find someone who can organise me.

I'm so dependant on my loved ones.
D:
Gah.

EGG!

I ate a little bit of egg!
Even though it's just patheticly a tiny piece in the sushi, but i felt.. awwww. I don't know!
LOLLLL.

It was fucking awesome. :D!

But i'm still craving for them. D:

Muse is coming to Singapore!

But I can't go!

OH MANNNNNNN!
DDDDDDDDDD:'

I'm at depression mode.

Cholestrol(?)

I want to eat an egg!!!!!!!
D:
My cravings for eggs have gone so bad that i'm behaving like a 5 year old.
I want an egg.
D:
A scrambled egg.
D:

& B is a retard. :D

I finally reached home.
D:

And i still haven't finish Miss Chen's homework.
I'm just going to get screwed tomorrow.

I love you! :D

Hongping is gay!

I had a bad day.

I'm typing with my eyes closed. I'm just wayyyyy toooo sleepy. D:

Jammmm

I sang a lot during the camp.
And every song reminds me of chin hooi.
Gahhhh.
LOL.
I'm damn sleepyyyyy!

Best group!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh my godddddd!
4/8 got the BEST GROUP!
*screams*!
I almost died when I know this!
HAHAHA.

I'm glad i went for the camp. It made me realise how awesome my class is!
We can we united. We can be fun. We can be crazy. We can be loud. We can be encourgaing. We can do all sorts of stupid things together, as a class.

Spread the love to everyone!: I want your love, love love love, I want your love ~

The instructors are good people. :D They pushed me to help the others. They pushed me to do more encouragement than I will normally do. It was crazy. Yeah, the things our group did was tougher, but that's what made it memorable. If it was simple and easy, who would have remember?

I love my instructors. Yes, they are strict. In a good way. :D Because I see people encouraging each other. Because I see people helping each other. Because I see people sacrificing for each other. Because my class is awesome to start with!

Thank you Instructor Matthew and Instructor Sharmie.

Bad Romance is officially stuck in my head. But I don't mind. In fact, i'm loving it. :D
Love love love, I want your love ~

Entries!

Oh! And and, as i was going through the chaotic mess i have in my study room, i found the diary i had since primary two!
It's so stupid! hahahahahhaha, my english is still as horrible! LOL. I only have 3 entries for P2, 2 entries for P3, 1 entry for P4. I have none for P5, quite a number for P6.

It's so weird to read back what i use to write! I sound like a bimbotic retard. LOL. Mostly is about this guy i had a huge crush on and how crazy i used to be over him. Oh my god. I can't believe i wrote down that kind of entries! It's so embarrassing! :C

Plus, there's this P2 entry with a very cool ending!
I wrote: "And my daddy went(came) home. We ate our dinner and dranke(drank) suop(soup). We watched television. We went to sleep."
Isn't it cool!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Campppp..?

I'm not looking forward to camp at all.
LOL.
I'm just going because it's the last year.
Oh mannn.
D:
I kind of wanna do self study in a way.
Gahhhh.

I guess i'll just go and have fun.

NO KPOP. ):

:D

I wanna sing. D:

But my voice says no. D:

Gahhhhh.

*sings*

I'm sad. D:

I'm sleepy. LOL.

I miss chin hooi man. D:
I'm going to sing without him. D:

O O
I think my brother's really into K-pop now! The only thing he does when he turns on the computer, is to go youtube, and start listening to K-pop. Oh my god. ._.
This is scary. Now i can't sing with him. D:

Abnormal

Mason didn't come for drama today.
It felt so weird.
That's when i realise that i rely on him a lot. I was totally screwed during drama today.
I keep wanting to get suggestions, but he's not there.
I don't know who to turn to.
It's just so weird.
I guess i'm too dependant on my vice chairman.
Time to do everything myself.
He needs a break.

Jimmy kaneeeee ~
hahhahahahahahaha
:D

I'm going crazyyy ~ :D

I laughed! :D
HAHAAAAAAHAA. :D

I'm going to be happy and laugh tomorrow. :D

Blessed

Look at the world, people are dying, people are crying for their love ones.

So why, why should I be sulking in one corner? I should be doing something to help people around me. Cherish them, and not care about my moronic emotions. I shouldn't be thinking about what I feel, I should be tending to them. So what if i'm at a disadvantage? What matters is that I don't feel used. Most importantly, I wouldn't regret.

I'm sick and tired of people playing around with each other's feelings. I don't know what to believe in now. It's like everything is fake.

I'm not believing, but I believe that i'm blessed. To have people who cared, at least, before.

Life's fragile.

I'm pissed and angry.
I don't understand this.
And, you don't come to me when that happens.
I'm not a fucking tree that will stay there all your life.
I'm a fucking human.
Fuck you.

I feel like i've let them down.
This is the last thing i can do for them, yet all i can do is screwing things up. I don't understand what's wrong with me.
I'm sorry. I really am.
I want to make it better, but i'm making it worse.

I'm such a loser.

Weird

I don't like indefinite things, i don't know why. I just can't convince myself. I don't like how insecure i feel about every single thing now.

I just want to sleep 2 days off. Until i'm fully recovered. I don't know how long i can last.

& i'm out of higher chinese class. I feel empty. 3 years, it's like a burnt mark.
But i'm glad that now i can concentrate better on other subjects. However, i have to improve my english, or else i will just die in o levels.

I'm sick and tired.

FML

I'm suppose to be happy that i've gotten an A2, but i just feel like crying.
Am i under depression?

I can't differentiate between dreams and reality now.
This suck.

Part of me

Once upon a december, once upon OBML.

I'm really touched to see ob people posting and still keeping in contact.
I really love you guys.
I hope we meet again.
Some day.

You guys are something that i will never forget.
No matter what happens, you guys will always be a part of me, my memories.

Hi, i'm still sick. I want to get well soon.

I don't like the dreams i had this morning. D:

And why do you keep talking to me? D:

Orientation

I guess that this is the last year, no, last few months that i could contribute to drama. And, i want to give my all. I don't want to regret on anything.
I realise, i haven't been doing much for drama.
I didn't organise any drama camp.
I didn't help out much in SYF, just being the asm, standing there.

Now, there's only the orientation, which is also officially my last job as the chairman of drama.
I want to do an excellent job, i don't want to let the juniors down. This is like the last thing that i can do for them. I don't want to let this chance go wasted.

But i hate my body, it's not recovering as much as i would like it to.
I can't do much if i'm this sick.
I don't even know if i'm typing proper english now, everything is like a blur. I can't even read a fucking storybook properly.

I'm serious about giving my best to drama. Furthermore, i can't help out in the upcoming major production in august? Or maybe later.
I don't know. I just feel like i haven't been doing anything.
Sorry drama.

I hope this year's orientation will be a success.
We can obtain 13 or more members. Those who are interested and are really to commit to drama.
I'm adding one more new year resolution: 13 or more members joining drama.

I love Envisage D.

Situations

Ohhhhh man! D:
My life is screwed. D:

Okay, i have to do it myself, or else i will die man. Seriously.
D:

I can do it! :D

Hongping is the man!
Wahhahahhahaha

First day of school

Okayyyyy, school's back, the feeling is good.
:D

I kind of miss the times in school, but this year is stressful.
D:

Thinking about all the workloads are scary enough.
& i'm scared that i do some stupid things again.

I want to study.
I promise i will.
:D?
Anddd, not to sleep in class! :D

What the shit, the new principle just made my day man.
Oh my god. D:
She sings lullaby ~
*eyes closing*
& she's fierce!
Seriously. - -
I bet caning will be back this year.
D:
Lucky it's my last year. :D

Yayyyyyy, i'm copying work!
D:
I feel like shit actually.
._.

Hi school, see you later.

I don't want to do this, but i want to do this.

Oh man, i'm contradicting.

I'm gonna copy homework as usual.

LOL.

I'm going to stay back everyday after school to study!

I mean i'm going to TRY. :D

Gahhhhhh,

2010 will be a great year wouldn't it?

:D

I hope so. :D

Cheers! x

I haven't been posting much. LOL.

I don't know, i feel weird now.

Very weird.

D:

Everything's so indefinite that its scary.

School's gonna reopen tomorrow, i'm still not prepared.

LOL.

& i haven't done any homeworks! Gahhhhhhhhh!

D:

2010

HAHA!

IT'S 2010! :D