I ran today.
30 minutes straight without stopping.

IT WAS AWESOME.
HAHA.
I can feel everything spinning. Wooo!

Now i'm thinking about all the other things that i haven't been thinking about recently.
My life is all about studies.
It's like WHAT THE FUCK. OH MY GOD. I want to scream so badly!
FUCK LIFE. FUCK HOMEWORKS. FUCK SCHOOL.

I'm losing hope in everything single fucking thing. LOL.
Am i crazy or what.

I miss OB. I can't stand it. I need OB. So badly. I guess limin agrees with me.
It's scary here. I can't keep up. I can't do well. I'm just not the academic person. But i'm not good in my right brain too. LOL. Then what am i? What am i? What do i want to do?
I don't know. I don't know. I'm good at NOTHING. I have no talents. I specialised in nothing.
What am i suppose to do when i grow up?
I don't wanna be like everybody else. I want to do something meaningful.
I don't want to do a job for the sake of doing the job.
I want to do the job because i want to do it.
But what can i do? I'm not good in anything.
I just don't see anything meaningful in my future.

They always tell me, don't worry, you can do it.
But the question is, do what? I don't even know what i want to do, what do they expect from me?
It sucks to be aimless.
It sucks. I just don't have the motivation to do anything. I'm studying for the sake of other people, not for myself. Why? Because they told me to.

I hate english.

Sometimes, i wish i was special.