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Heh heh, I'm blogging again.

Had the feel to do it again tonight. ;)

Recently my mood has been fluctuating. Maybe its because my period is late? But my temper and attitude has worsen so much I'm starting to wonder otherwise. Is it because I'm changing? Previously, if my mother comes and nag/scold, I will just keep quiet or reassure her that I will be okay. However, these days I get so annoyed and angry whenever she scolds me. Is this part of growing up? But I'm already turning 19. Something's not right. Maybe I should try to communicate with her more. Maybe we lack understanding with each other. I know my mom loves me. & she definitely cares for me. Maybe she's expressing it in the wrong way, or I'm accepting it with the wrong mindset. Gotta do something about this man. If this goes on, I would dread going home. & that is the last thing I want to feel. I know I'm not a family person. Everyone except my family thinks that I am. But I'm not. I'm just good at keeping quiet. Even though I'm not, I still love my family.

There was once I was talking to Dad about travelling because I've always wanted to do bag packing. He pretty much like the idea, but the last thing he told me was 'but at the end of the day, please remember to come home'. I didn't know how to reply, so I just said, 'yeah, I definitely will.'

Well, I don't know what I really am thinking and how I really am feeling. Can't find any words to describe. I just want everyone to be happy in the family. I wanna go home smiling and telling them about my day. I wanna do the house chores with my brother without being scolded by mom. I wanna sit down and have heart to heart talk. I wanna let them know what is going on in my life and I wanna know what's going on in theirs.

Ah well, gonna have to work towards it.

Ending off here. Its pretty late & I would like to catch on some sleep I've lost the previous night. Sorry for the bad English.

Oh and I wanted to post a photo and came across this. So true man. My mom loves me so much more than I love her, Don't ever know how I'm going to repay her. Thanks mom. Thanks for everything.



P.S. I really wanna change my blog template but idk how. Will take some time to explore.. hmm.

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I hate waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to fall back to sleep.
Sometimes I wonder why it will happen, it is because our brain decides that it is time for us to do some reflecting? Well, I would really wanna have a goodnight sleep now, but I can see that its not happening now.

Its already 4 45am in the morning. Tomorrow I have to go out for valentine's day. Of course I don't have a date, but at least let me look presentable. What's so hard about that? I just wanna look like I have sufficient sleep.

Just felt like doing a short post. Haven't blog in so long. & the first post is actually a rant. lol. Oh well.

Waiting for it to be morning so I will be distracted with the morning 'song'. By morning 'song', I meant people going to work, the start of cars, buses, LRTs, the sounds of birds waking up and even people walking. Sometimes, these music are good. It shows that I am not alone.

Sidetracking from being alone, haha. Sometimes I wanna help people through the enterprise that I wanna start, but my cause for animals is actually so much stronger than it is for human .

I feel that the problems that human beings (us) face is created by ourselves. However, the problems that animals face, I'm not just talking about animals in Singapore which are mainly domestic. I'm talking about animals all over the world, in the jungle, lakes, sea, rainforest, mountains, deserts, cold places, hot places, everywhere. The problems that they faced, are created by humans. Shouldn't people care for them too? We are the ones who are responsible for this mess that they did not signed up for. Sigh. I don't know man. Sometimes I'm a coward because I do not dare to post about what I think. I know nobody actually even read this. But what if something I said is wrong and it goes viral? lol.

I'm such a pussy.

Its getting more happening around my area. Gonna try sleeping with the morning 'song'. Its soothing. Try listening to it in a different perspective. :)

Goodnight/morning

P.S. My English is so bad. Limited vocab, sloppy grammar. Bleh. Screw it. Life is good. (Y)