Let me scream. Just this night. I'm begging you.

Its my fucking fault. But i still feel fucking angry when you said that.
What's your problem?
Don't want me?
Fucking throw me out.
I didn't say i don't want this place.
You want to give up on me.
Go ahead.
I don't care already.
Its either you start to talk to me normally, or you can forget about your laughing daughter.

She's gone.

Ah, fuck.
This suck.
Be a villian, for once.
I should. But i didn't. Why?

HAHA
Did i say i like yongyao at NCO concert? Mmmm, but its true what, he is a good friend!
I like teasing couples, its so fun and addictive!
LAO DA!
hahhahahahahha!

Oh man, i'm high in the middle of the night!
Oh No. D:

O O
That comment was shocking.
Ah, shut up hongping.
HAHA.
I'm crazy.
LOL.
But i'm still shocked!

I helped a guy today!
Made me happy throughout the whole night.
HAHA.
I think i'm stupid.

My head hurts, i wanna get some sleep, after getting your notice. Reply?

My aim: not to use computer from monday till thursday.
LOL
I think i will fail. LOL.

You told me you're okay, but i don't think you are.
Why are you so lenient to him?
He doesn't deserve it.
A fucktard like him should go away and get lost.
He better figure who he likes the most, if not i will cut the strings, whether you like it or not.

I'm so tired that i'm knocking on the table every 5 minutes.

I want the green bag
I want the green bag.
I WANT THE GREEN BAG.
D:
This is depressing, i want the green baggggg! D:
Buy it buy it.

At least i cheered you up, even if its only a tiny little bit.
:D

Nowadays, i keep falling asleep without shutting down the computer!
Imagine how much electricity i've wasted.
Gosh.
D:
I'm going to save elelctricity.
I'm going to stop using the computer for a few days
(really really hope so)

Ah, there's 2 tests later, & i haven't study.

Let me sleep.

I trust you, but i just can't talk, open yourself to me first?
& you didn't tell me anything too, now that i realise.
I'm so tired that i'm crying from yawning.
hahahhahaha.

I hate math.

& the timing on my blog, idk why, but its correct again.
LOL.

I can smell you.
(This is damn sick!)

Lalalala~

I hate the way it works.
Stay awake hongping! You've got work to do! Wake uppppppp.
I'm sad.
hahaha.

Its not your fault.

Haha, i told them that i'm gonna make my blog seem happy!
Its hard. Very hard.
I'm like hahahha!
But in fact i'm fuckfuckfuck.
LOL.
Woooooo.

I'm bored.

I love you.
23, a weird day.
:D

LOL.
Jiade said something stupid about this just now, but i close the msn conver!
Ahhhhh, i wanted to post it!
D:

He said something about my hormones going weird on the today, 23rd, of last month, and i confessed my love or something.
LOLL. Its stupid. HAHA

I survived through a 3 & 1/2 hour tuition of math and physic! I think i've got super powers. HAHA

& i went to the library after that!
:D!
Okay, but i have to confess, i did nothing. I was busy playing with jinxiang and vanessa at the kids corner. I feel retarded now though. But its fun!
I haven't laughed and enjoyed myself for weeks!
:D
Thanks guys!
You two made my day. :D !

I love my cliques! *hugs*

I just finished reading 30 pages of fmylife.com
I broke my record!
But i used 4 hours to do it.
It is a weak attempt to make me concentrate on other things rather than that.

Its painful.

Vanessa said that my blog's emo.
LOL.
I'm going to make it happy.
Okay, at least i will try. LOL.
Er, maybe not this post.
I can't think of anything. Stm suck most of the time.
LOL.
hahaha.
Jiade rock big time!
You will be fine with her. :D
Don't worry. :D

Its late.
I'm having double visions, but i'm not sleeping.
LOL.
I wanna try if not sleeping will make you fall sick.
Best is i get a 7 day mc!
No school for a week! :D
*prays*

No hard feelings.
My fuck.
That was a lie.

Isn't acting happy the easiest way on earth?
I think it is.
Try it, you don't have to be hardworking to master it.

I chose to ignore today.
I chose to laugh today.
I chose to keep quiet today.
I chose to ask you to go away today.
I chose to talk as though i didn't know that something was wrong with you today.
I chose to skip lunch today.
I chose to think today.
I chose to call you retarded today.
I chose to think that my friends are stupid today.
I chose to hide it today.
I chose to not ask today.

What about tomorrow?

I'm proud of you. :D

I'm glad that you're here with me.

Its painful to hear them coming out of your lips.
I kind of.. got a shock.
I nearly had a conflict with my piano teacher.
I feel horrible playing something like that for her, i'm so so so sorry. I didn't mean it, it wasn't on purpose.
I don't know why, i have difficulties concentrating on things today.

Today is emo day.

I'm like a closed book with a lock on it. The key is in my head, you gain my trust, you get the key.
After getting the key and opening the book, you will realise that there are sealed envelopes with "no entry unless permission granted" slotted in some of the pages.
All of the pages are full of ink, but you can't read them. Its all scribbles.
The envelopes wouldn't budge, you ask me about it, and i will look at you, keeping silent.

Conclusion: There's no point in getting the key at all.

This is officially my favourite video.
The pianist made this for his seven year old daughter, Sarah!
Isn't it cool?
Gosh, how loving!
:D
Love story and Viva la vida!
LOL.
Its super cool!
:D

When i said that, the look on your face, i think i kind of hurt you didn't i? I'm sorry. I don't like the way things were done. I dislike it so much that i don't even feel like talking about it. It will get hurtful. Sometimes, i think silence make the best answer.

I don't like emotional recall, that exercise's too much for me.
Sadness just too much of my thing.
My eyes are dry, so dry that it hurts.
I feel like crying, but nothing's coming out.
Slap me and make me cry.
You don't mean it, cause you don't know what's that too.

Make me cry, seriously.
I just made my brother angry, what's wrong with me?
Fuck my head.

Ahhhhhh, i feel bad towards both side.
How?
Maybe its time i do something.
TOMORROW GOT DRAMAAAAA.
& i haven't finish drama homework!
die already.
D:
& i haven't come out with some things i want to come out with.
D:
LOL.
I rock in last minute work eh.
HAHA.

I rather be a crazy bitch, at least they dare to express themselves.

My brother bought me green apple ice blended after he know it was my favourite!
Gosh, I LOVE MY BROTHER! :D
Some more he treat me can!
hahahahha.
shock eh of my life.
:D

I'm dying.
I need to sleep.
Oh my god, we are getting from bad to worse.
I think its either i find someday to spill out, or we continue like this.
Its killing me.
I love my bffs.
hahahah.
I sound stupid.

I miss the times when we do things, when we laughed over the same things, when we cry over the same things, when we slept together during camps, when we spent most of the time together.
I wished you missed them too.
I hope you do, i really hope so.
I mean it when i say you're my best friend.
I don't go around calling people my best friend.
That's retarded.
There's only 4 people in my life i've ever called them my best friend.
That's how important you are to me.
I hope you understand.
I want us back.
I believe in our friendship.
I really do.

But still, i'm sorry.
For all the things i've done and didn't do.
I'm sorry.

Fuck, when did things turn out to be like that?
Shit it.
The problem lies with me.
I'm the problem.
What the fuck?
Initiative is the thing right?
Isn't it?
Then why the fuck?
Oh my god, I think i suck not big time, but the whole time.
Seriously, i want to give up.
What's the point when its only me doing all the fuckshit and you all seem like you don't care?
I don't see a fucking point at all.
So what's new, oh, i treated all of you as my bff, and it turn out to me none of you treat me like one.
I tell you what, thanks.
I needed that.
So i'm not stress at all right, i'm suppose to go around and meet your needs.
FUCK THAT.
Talk to me.
Don't expect me to make the first move all the time.
I'm sick of it.

Vanessa said that i have no life.
LOL.
I kind of agreed.
I want to do things that i feel like doing and ignore all the other things.
Let me rest, no more homeworks.
& i love her.

I want direct ones, not indirect ones.
Why am i listening to Tonight nonstop again?
Gosh.
I hate homeworks.
Lets go out and sing, i need a singing session.

I'm still frustrated by the coming and going of these.
How do you stop them?
How do you get a mental breakdown?

I want my life to be happening.
Try it.

Oh my god.
I feel like a bitch, okay, i think i am.
Vanessa said that i'm too lenient in drama, that i have to be fiecer(idk if there's such a word).
I agree, but i don't want to scold people in drama.
Seriously.
Maybe being strict helps, she says i'm not even firm.
I need to change and adapt.
How?

Fuck the facts.
Maybe i'm better off without them.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

I feel horrible.
I rather i cry and scream and make a din.
I rather you tell me that you realise i did it on purpose.
Quote of the day from sherrill: I really feel like throwing slippers right onto your face!

I love sherrill, next time we're going to have the overnight talks yeah.
Its just you and me.
:D
I spilled everything out today.
Its.. depressing to even talk about it.

My dad just got trash by my mum due to me, he came in and hit me on the shoulder and i'm laughing at him.
Isn't it weird?
I love my dad, he's so cute.
:D

I feel fucked up.

I've deleted the tagboard.
:D
Like finally.

There's only two reasons why I dislike it.

1. I'm too lazy to reply and relink people.
2. Its too troublesome.
Oh, and one more thing. I don't want you to come and comment, it will only hurt more.
So that makes it three reasons.

But i'm still not used to not seeing people's comments, okay, even though its me who deleted it. Never mind, i'll get over it.
Sorry people. D:
I love my friends. :D except you.

P.S. I'm thinking of deleting the links too.

Ahhhhh, forget it. I guess i'll never be able to finish up anything.
I'm screwed by images and memories.
So much for being happy.
Lets play the Touching Game.

I realise that staying up late alone is impossible.
& also, writing a love story is tiring.

I keep listening to Tonight by FM Static so much that it's stupid.
School without you suck.
Hope that it wouldn't happen again.

I'm busted.
No more of that.
My mind's not that good.

I can't get the fucking image off my mind.
Does that happen to close friend?
I'm disturbed, just like that time.
Get the picture off my mind, please.

Gosh, no time! D:
Why did you delete the post saying that you half lied cause you lived for nothing at the same time?
Its 4:03am.

You know what?
I think red bull doesn't work for long.
I'm like, very tired now.
Lucky i bought 4 cans of it.
Let's see..hongping's gonna be like a zombie tomorrow.
Wow.

How do you ever finish 8 chinese compos in a night?
Copy.
That's what i'm doing for 2 of them.
So i'm left with 6 more to think about.
Fantastic.

I drank red bull.
Energised.
But i still hate the taste of red bull.
Its 11:31 now.

Ah, I don't think anyone will want to help.
Forget it.
Just stay as you are blog.
You know I love you, no matter how you look like.
I'm so bored that i'm talking to my blog.
Cool.

I just realise that the timing on my blog is wrong.
Its like 12 plus now?
Eh, but i'm too lazy to change everytime.
I want sherrill help me change blog.
I'm too lazy.
Ahhh, its so unfortunate to have a friend like me.
Anybody interested in helping me to change it?

Lets go and sleep and be good kids.
Mum and Dad's going to love you.
I'm seriously bored.
Gosh.

Gosh, the last time i blogged was.. ages ago.
Nobody's gonna view my blog man.
I just feel like crapping now.
I want delete my tag board and links.
Its too troublesome.