You're the only reason why I online. You're the only reason why I'm using the computer. I don't surf the net these few days. I don't even feel like it. But I'm here because of you.

I'm sick of computers. I guess it's just temporary.
Down.

I don't understand why I can gain so much fats.
Fuck it.

I want to go London weight management. It's getting on my nerves! D: I want to go back to when I was sec 2! My fucking stomach was fucking flat! Now it's popping out! Rawrrrrrrr! D: Bloody hell.

Suffering from mild depression. D:

I miss jinxiang. D:

I miss yatyan. D:

I miss sherrill. D:

Ryan made me addicted to this song.

I want miracles to happen.

I don't understand why I should be understanding things that I don't think I will ever need to understand. I'm panicking instead, of how little time I have left. It's time I get serious and stop wasting time. I don't have much time for the due date now. Great. How wonderful.

I can never never be a counsellor.

But I appreciate what I have now.

Apparently I want my period to come badly. & i think it is.

But i hate the PMS that comes with it. Can we just cancel that one away?

I don't know what to do.

Don't give up. Don't.

I'm really screwed up. Like everything's my fault. Crap.

I lost hope in promises.

They just hurt people all over again.

What's the point?

I should have another blog. One that nobody knows.

I feel so fucked up yet so numb.

I feel a lot, but I can't feel a thing.

I know I should be talking, but I don't think I should. It will just get worse anyway.

It sucks so much.

I'm very sick and tired of this.

Now I realise something: Don't ever ever give up the time for your friends, cause at the end of the day, you realise you will have no one to really talk to.

1 hour plus is already enough to make me half dead. What about 10 days?
I will die.

Fuck day

Fuck my fingers
Fuck my eyes
Fuck my legs
Fuck my knees
Fuck the wall
Fuck the track
Fuck the bruise
Fuck the sounds
Fuck the cars
Fuck the lights
Fuck the traffic lights
Fuck the lift
Fuck water
Fuck the headache
Fuck the dizziness
Fuck the feeling
Fuck the shower
Fuck the marks
Fuck the messages
Fuck the handphone
Fuck the ulcers
Fuck that song
Fuck all the shits in the world.
I fucking care.

Oh my god. I'm worried, happy, sad, confused, excited.
LOL.
Okay, more towards the happy side. :D
But yeah.

I hate it when my brother is sad. I'm serious. I think it's time me and my brother have a heart to heart talk.

I love it when it comes to some anniversary or birthday thing. It just lightens the mood up a lot.

I'm confused about what i'm thinking about, there's so many things in my head.

I'm worried about what's going on around me.

I'm excited about tomorrow.

Now, I'm really tired.
*yawns*

I love my brother.

Ah crap. I keep bickering with my dad. He is damn unreasonable. I can't even communicate with him now.

It hurts fucking lot okay. But I can't talk anymore. Fuck this fact.

Maybe I'll try and listen to him or something. Like don't talk back.
...
I hope it works.
Quite depressed in a way.

I'm complaining a lot nowadays. How pathetic can I get?

Empty

Mmmm, this kind of suck. But I think things are going back to the same.
Or should I say, even worse.

I said I would be there, but apparently I'm not doing a good job.
Sorry. Didn't mean it.
I just don't know how to face you anymore.

People are going overseas soon, I think I should update myself with you guys more.
Sorry for not contacting these few days.

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard.
Maybe we're torn apart.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.

I'm so tired that I wanna sleep for 2 days. D:

Chalet was fucking cool! I love drama! :D

Class chalet was fucking fun! :D

But I still miss my house. :D

Overall: Fantastic! :D

It feels good to be home. :D

Baby, you're the best. :D Thanks for the past 4 days!

Lalalaaaa

Yay! :D *squeeze*
I feel awesome and horrible for singing. :D

How ironic. & I was hoping everything gets better few days ago.

I'm that naive. But I'm not giving up. Last lap. Do it?



Cool ain't it? Whether it's real or not. I don't know.
I just know I should cherish people around me. Before it's too late?

Directions anyone?

I said that I'll be there, but I don't know how to. I stopped sticking. You need time alone. But now, I'm too far away. How am I suppose to be there for you when you don't even need me? I have no idea.

Maybe I'll just stay at this distance until you call for me.

There's so many things that I don't know what to do about. But I can't talk to anyone about it.

Why do I love the swing?
They make me dizzy, they make me feel like I'm not real, they make me feel free.

I want to cuddle so badly.

I don't know what to do. But i'll still be there, I promise.

Whenever you remember


When you look back on times we had
I hope you smile
And know that through the good and through the bad
I was on your side when nobody could hold us down
We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
And no they won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

When you think back on all we've done
I hope you're proud
When you look back and see how far we've come
It was our time to shine
And nobody could hold us down
They thought they'd see us fall
But we, we stood so tall
And no we won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Yeah, Oh

We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
You know that we, we showed them all
And no they won't forget

Yeah

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Whenever you remember

Oh, whenever you remember

Sticking back once again?

Can we go out someday? :D Let's have a gathering! Or maybe we can have a date, just you and me. :D

I believe that all of us can be how we used to be. Just put in more effort? :D

We'll be fine. *hug*

D:

I don't want to fight anymore. It's so tiring. I really really want us to stop fighting.

I want this to go on and on and on.

& I'm still scared of them.

I wouldn't know, if you don't say. Do you want to start talking? Or just keep that distance?

I asked, only to see how much you trust me. Apparently not totally, but it's okay. I trust you.

I'll get our friendship back, I promise.

I don't know how, but I will try. But, can you contribute too? I don't know how to do it alone.

I'm scared, to be honest.

Do you remember?

Do you remember the times, where I used to walk you home, and we will on some random music, and start singing our lungs out? And when people walk past, we will just keep quiet and start laughing after they walk past? And also, when we use to take turns to sleep in class and waking each other up? Do you remember I used to talk about this guy, and I will start scribbling his name all over my table, which was cover in black and white paper? And do you remember there was this time we played with glues in class? And we were sticky all over, yet happy? You left a glue mark on one of my school shirt which I can't get rid of. I'm not angry or irritated at all about that mark.

I really really miss how close we used to be. How I could tell you anything in the world, how much I really trusted you. How I used to have a grip on your arm when we go out. How we use to laugh at things that are not funny at all.

Do you remember? I would never forget them. No matter how distance we are now. You'll always have a place.

I miss us.